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Excerpts from my Journal | 04

November 26, 2014

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I didn't tell him that the reason I went out last night with him was because I knew it was a situation I would normally have avoided: a room full of people I don't know, making small talk abound; a night that didn't even begin until 9:30pm, and in this case didn't end until 1:30am when I collapsed into bed.

I didn't tell him that I went last night because I wanted to prove to myself that I could do it, do it well, and make it out alive.


I can't recall if it was last night or this morning, but I was laying in bed and thought: I feel as though we're different people now. I feel like I can't relate to her the way I used to; I thought we'd at least always have that. I'm trying to recall what we have in common, beyond motherhood, but I'm drawing a blank. 


I read in a book the other day that too many people feel they go through their lives not really living it, rather, simply existing. Reading that was like a punch in the stomach. "That's me," I thought. "That's exactly how I feel." And after I caught my breath I thought, ok,now that I've said it, what can I do about it?


So here it is, the truth: I'm too hard on myself. I can't be everything for everyone and I can't sacrifice what I want it order to make everyone else happy.

I'm a good mother. I may be impatient at times and need time away from DJ, but I am a good mother.

Stop being so hard on yourself, Rachel.

You are a good mother.


As I collapsed onto the bed in tears, all I could think was: this is the second time I've cried this week and it's only Wednesday.

Excerpts from my journal, inspired by Ronnie.

Project Life 2014 | Week 46

November 24, 2014


Week 46!

If you don't recognize the fun filler and journal cards, that's because they're new in my shop! You can check them out here.

47 / 52

November 22, 2014


"A portrait of my child, once a week, every week in 2014"

It feels like every day he becomes more adventurous, more daring, more confident. I feel so blessed that he is mine and that I get to watch him grow like this.

The Memory Keeping Attitude

November 20, 2014


When asked how long I have been taking part in Project Life, my answer is always the same: I began when I became pregnant with my son in mid-2012. But that's not the whole truth, not really.

Digital Project Releases | 11.18.2014

November 18, 2014

Hey all!

I've been hard at work on some great, new holiday designs that I'm excited to share with you, along with some fun and colorful sets. You can find out more over here, but here's a quick look at the new releases, just in time for your holiday albums and documenting!

I hope everyone is having a great week so far!

Project Life 2014 | Week 45

November 17, 2014


Week 45 (Nov 3- Nov 9).

After the craziness of week in the life I was more than ready for a simple, low-key week, and that is exactly what week 45 turned into.